Monday, June 26, 2006
In which our heroine writhes with envy
"Envy shoots at others and wounds itself" - Old English proverb. So this week is the first round of adoption referrals from China since the Omegas got the Bad Word. People are posting referrals on blogs, on Rumor Queen, and elsewhere. Those of you who have gone through the infertility wringer know how I'm feeling--it's just like that feeling you would get when Yet Another Person announced a pregnancy. It's a whole new facet of the "It's not FAIR!!" world. Oh, don't get me wrong--I'm happy, thrilled for those who have received their referrals. But whereas, pre-OmegaDotter, referrals were exciting harbingers of things to come for us, and post-OmegaDotter, referrals were a misty-eyed, sentimental reminder of what it was like (plus a harbinger of things to come)...now...now it's provoking a lot of miserable and whiny "why me?" emotions. I feel like a sour old maid with pursed up lemon-lips. Wah, wah, wah.